I looked at myself saw a pile of bulky trash
looked through my chest saw leftovers of a heart and some ash
I saw a failure walking on stalks
a worn out painting better hid in cloaks
a lost cause a broken glass
an attrition with no pause, a rusty brass
I wondered why the sun was shinning on me for another day
I didn’t want to be a part of it’s painful milky way
why the sky won’t just fall down crush me under it’s stars
why do i have to be this being carving his own scars
my thoughts were all self blaming
my soul was sour and blazing
I had no respect but a rant
felt less alife than a dying plant
but one day someone told me about two crossed pieces of wood
and how God stood where i should have stood
it was the sign of the son of man
for all people not for a certain tribe or clan
These arms are stretched out for me
these hands are nailed for me to be free
for a moment i let go of how i think of me
realized how blind i am ,i really need to see
and i’ve feltl love and mercy like never before
and was written on the sign ” you worth dying for “
you think these roads have left you alone
shouldn’t have believed you can do it on your own
because this null you think you are
I the Lord see you a shinning morning star
for long you have believed in the devil’s lies
open your ears listen to my love cries
in my arms i will rest you of this strife
in my love i will bring you back the life
listen to me forget what you held before
my love,to Me, you are worthy dying for.
—And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me.
This he said, signifying what death he should die. (John 12:32-33)
