For You My Darkness

hi there, have you ever felt that you enjoyed being in pain, or sad, it’s not like you are happy with it, but it’s like you feel that you belong to pain and this is where you should be , well i felt this , i lived in this for long times , maybe 2 years in total, i  guess it was because nothing shined in my life, or because nothing that mattered to me happened , i wasn’t hungry , or homeless , no , i was living in a house , and have money , what caused  me pain wasn’t a materialistic thing, but now, i have found that i can live in the light, i can really enjoy my life, and have a life, that’s away from being goth , or sadist ,or something like this, it’s true every one of us can have a life in the light , you can enjoy your life, to be honest i didn’t find what gives me the boost , or what gives me the hope that i can leave all this black life behind, Jesus christ has found me, only through him i found a meaning to mylife, to enjoy his presence in my life, it’s a very different life, and very beautiful ,it has its sadness and joy, but every thing has a different taste, when i gave my life to Jesus, he promised that he is going to give me a life that suits me the best – that’s his promise in the bible for those who will follow him- , it’s simple because i am God’s hand made, he knows me better than i do, so he is the best one to lead me in my life,

so i want you my dear one that you realize the fact that , you can leave all that darkness behind, and start a new life, i hope that you accept christ in your life, and you will have the best one, this poem is to say : it’s possible and it’s beautiful to leave your dark life , and start a new one : ) , full of success , joy, experiencing new horizons and new friendships, talents, thoughts, deeds, it’s so beautiful and it is in your hands.

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for you my darkness i loved my fall
abandoned my good and gave it all

to an end that hope never gone to
enjoyed the walk & bieng wounded too

every thing that mattered ,
every thing that ached
all are new colored
all are new shaped

it’s for you my darkness i enjoyed the fall

the pain in the eyes, the ghosts in my sighs
the flowers that faded, the hours i wasted
for you my darkness i couldn’t touch

you were my black widow everyday
to die for your love ,i should pay

again and again you saoked the life out of me
and you, you were the only one i could see

for you my darkness i lost it all
turned all my seasons into fall

but no my dear, you only gave me fear
and showed me the people that have no fear

you were enjoying my deep burns
but no my dear . i will leave you here
in your end ,where no one is near

good bye my darling i’m heading to the light
enjoy your loneliness in your dark night

hello my day , ill embrace your love
take me away , ill enjoy your love

John 12:46 “I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.”