I am a devil not a good guy

Just a thought comes to me sometimes, when i feel i am not in my best form with God , when i feel away, mostly i think i am more of a devil than a good man of God, in these times when a friend of mine needs some help, needs a prayer, needs a tip of how to deal with something, when I help this friend, by praying with , or since i passed through the same situation a while ago and God helped me and I tell him about it , encourage him by how God helped me, was there for me, didn’t forsake me, and this work , my friend becomes encouraged, pleased because of knowing that God wont let him/her down , i feel pleased and say oh I am still functional, still something good can get out of me , the well God put inside me is still working : ) and it’s like yaaay : ) , but then a moment of sadness comes, oh man shouldn’t I be helping myself first and then help friends , if i am away from God how can i bring someone near to him, I can’t help myself  so now i am expecting myself to help someone and then ok but i gave that friend a tip or an advice on how to deal with what’s he is going through ,yup that’s right but a devil knows what would help that friend, what would keep him close to God, so actually it’s not God’s well in me that helped the friend, consider it a knowledge or something, anyways when this thought goes in my mind I totally lose hope and feel sad despite i was just happy few seconds ago, but the point is : If satan knows what can bring a man near to God he wouldn’t tell that man about it, he would lie ( in John 8:44 Jesus said  about satan ” for he is a liar and the father of it.”  ) and do his best to drive that man away and to keep him from doing what can help like praying and repenting for an example, or asking for God’s help and will to be done , satan would never tell a man about what would help him, but an angel would do : ) , it’s known that angels help men, so whenever you get this thought remember if you were a devil you wouldn’t have helped your friend, but God’s well is still in you, the  Holy spirit is still in you, and it’s just a call to come back to God, a reminder that it’s true you feel away but you are just a prayer near , be encouraged and be happy coz God is still in you, and if you feel you wanna help if you feel that the holy spirit wants to use you , don’t fail it, don’t withdraw , don’t feel sad and move a way , but be happy and be encouraged because it’s just a message of hope God is telling you , you are near , take this encouragement and go back to God he is waiting : )  in zechariah 1:3 “Therefore say to them, ‘Thus says the LORD of hosts: “Return to Me,” says the LORD of hosts, “and I will return to you,” says the LORD of hosts. ”

return to Him and he will return to you : )