The Heavenly beggar

From the book God Calling
November 25
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. Revelation 3:20

Oh, ponder again these words and learn from them My great humility.

There is that gracious invitation, too, for those who yearn to realize a happiness, a rest, a satisfaction they have never found in the world and its pursuits. To them, the pleading answer to their quest is “Come to Me and I will give you rest.”

But to those who do not feel their need of Me, who obstinately reject Me, who shut the doors of their hearts so that I may not enter, to these I go, in tender, humble longing. Even when I find all closed, all barred, I stand a Beggar, knocking, knocking. The Heavenly Beggar in His Great Humility.

Never think of those who have shut you out, or forgotten you, that now they must wait, you have no need of them. No! remember that, the Heavenly Beggar, and learn of Me, humility.

Learn too the value of each man’s happiness, and peace and rest, to Me, his God; and learn, and learning, pray to copy the Divine Unrest until a soul finds rest and peace in Me.

I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved,
and shall go in and out, and find pasture. John 10:9
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Hills of the Lord

from the book God calling

 

 

November 19 – Hills of the Lord

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.  
My help cometh form the Lord, which made heaven and earth.  Psalm 12:1,2

Yes! always raise your eyes, from earth’s sordid and mean and false, to the Hills of the Lord. From poverty, lift your eyes to the Help of the Lord.

In moments of weakness, lift your eyes to the Hills of the Lord.

Train your sight by constantly getting this long view.  Train it to see more and more, further and further, until distant peaks seem familiar.

The Hills of the Lord.  The Hills whence comes your help.  A parched earth looks to the Hills for its rivers, its streams, its life.  So look you to the Hills.  From those Hills comes Help.  Help from the Lord – who made Heaven and earth.

So, for all your spiritual needs, look to the Lord, who made Heaven, and for all your temporal needs look to Me, owner of all this, the Lord who made the earth.

Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.  James 4:10

 

the official site of the book where you can read it : www.twolisteners.org

New experience

i am going to tell you something , that happened to me, it’s real i am not telling a story from my mind,
the thing that i guess that many of you passed through the same situation.

with out any alert or something, one day ( which is today , the day i am writing this), i felt that i have lost contact with God, i felt that he is in a place and i am in a totally far away different place.
i felt this because every day , God talks to me, or gives me something to do, God gives me a new lesson, a new blessing, the feeling that God is here beside me. all of this was lost, suddenly.
i was so confused, what’s wrong? what did i do that drove God away, i can’t feel him at all,, this is strange, i have been with God for 3 and half months now, and never felt that he is away this way, what’s wrong, i couldn’t find an answer, i prayed, got some peace, but still don’t know what’s wrong,
all the day i was at home, i guess i didn’t do something that drove God that far, what’s wrong?

then i got scared, i thought what now, oh no, i am going to be back to my previous life, i am separated from God now, and i don’t know what did so, oh no , i am going back to my sins and my sadness and pain i had before i am born again in christ, i freaked out, i was so confused, actually i don’t wish that i pass through this again, i was totally confused, i couldn’t ask God for help because i felt that he is so far away, i felt that he is far and his promises are gone far with him, it was so disturbing,
but then i told one of my friends, ” i am so confused” “help me”, she said what’s wrong? i answered, i lost contact with God , i can’t feel that he is close as before, it’s like he is in another place,
she told me this is wrong, this feeling is not from your heart, the devil is pushing those feelings in it, but it is a lie,she told me the devil is fighting you, if you are not ready to fight then surrender , if you want to fight , then ask God’s help, but this feeling is not real, the devil is giving it to you , so that you return to your life before christ, who is lighting your life right now, i told her ” but i don’t know how to fight” , she answered by praying, by resisting even forcing yourself to fight, by the word of God( the holy bible) ,by praying, by love ,,you can fight with all of that, she told me the sign of the cross burns the devil always sign yourself with it( in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit, one God amen.) some of tears started to fall from my eyes, i told her , then what did i do so all of that happens to me ? she replied , nothing all what you did that you opened your heart to God, and this drove the devil crazy,so the devil told himself that I should bring that boy back to me.
then she told me that if you find yourself fighting the devil ,you should be happy, because God is making you stronger, God is rising your place in his heart up.

after that conversation, i went to my room, turned the lights off, closed the door, i held my cross and the cross i was wearing , my knees were on the floor but my arms were on my bed, and i started crying , and i was telling God, God i am not able to face this, i am scared and i was doing the cross sign, over and over again, and i was saying , God protect me i am not able to face what’s happening, i am your son, come plz, and i was saying in Jesus name, and crying and telling God, i am scared , and surrounding me i was feeling that God is holding me between his arms, and i am a little kid, and it’s like God made an invisible wall and the devil is trying to get through it but the devil can’t, it was like i can hear the voice of the devil’ collison with the wall and the devil can’t wait to crush me, but i was in God’s arms and i was crying, after being in this fo a while, i calmed down( the peace of God) , then i saw something in my head, it is not i vision i guess but it’s like God is showing me his thought or talk, it was like an angel holding a baby in a little cradle, and the angel was telling me you are that little baby, whenever the devil tries to mess with you, all you have to do is to cry, and your father ( jesus) will come to you and protect you.
all of this was in about 25 minutes. i felt that for the first time i has beaten the devil , actually God is the one who did, but i felt that i survived the fight, and i was victorious, i felt that i want to praise God and i was thanking him a lot and praising him,,, Jesus only allowed this to happen to me , so that i experience his victory , to experience getting my power from him, to experience a new love from him, and that is so beautiful.
actuall the psalm 116,117,118 were the ones i read, and actually i felt every word of them, 118 was very beautiful ::

Psalm 116
1 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;
he heard my cry for mercy.

2 Because he turned his ear to me,
I will call on him as long as I live.

3 The cords of death entangled me,
the anguish of the grave came upon me;
I was overcome by trouble and sorrow.

4 Then I called on the name of the LORD :
“O LORD, save me!”

5 The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.

6 The LORD protects the simplehearted;
when I was in great need, he saved me.

7 Be at rest once more, O my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.

8 For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death,
my eyes from tears,
my feet from stumbling,

9 that I may walk before the LORD
in the land of the living.

10 I believed; therefore I said,
“I am greatly afflicted.”

11 And in my dismay I said,
“All men are liars.”

12 How can I repay the LORD
for all his goodness to me?

13 I will lift up the cup of salvation
and call on the name of the LORD.

14 I will fulfill my vows to the LORD
in the presence of all his people.

15 Precious in the sight of the LORD
is the death of his saints.

16 O LORD, truly I am your servant;
I am your servant, the son of your maidservant ;
you have freed me from my chains.

17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to you
and call on the name of the LORD.

18 I will fulfill my vows to the LORD
in the presence of all his people,

19 in the courts of the house of the LORD—
in your midst, O Jerusalem.
Praise the LORD.

Psalm 117
1 Praise the LORD, all you nations;
extol him, all you peoples.

2 For great is his love toward us,
and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever.
Praise the LORD.

Psalm 118
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

2 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”

3 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”

4 Let those who fear the LORD say:
“His love endures forever.”

5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
and he answered by setting me free.

6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?

7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I will look in triumph on my enemies.

8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in man.

9 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in princes.

10 All the nations surrounded me,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.

11 They surrounded me on every side,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.

12 They swarmed around me like bees,
but they died out as quickly as burning thorns;
in the name of the LORD I cut them off.

13 I was pushed back and about to fall,
but the LORD helped me.

14 The LORD is my strength and my song;
he has become my salvation.

15 Shouts of joy and victory
resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!

16 The LORD’s right hand is lifted high;
the LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!”

17 I will not die but live,
and will proclaim what the LORD has done.

18 The LORD has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.

19 Open for me the gates of righteousness;
I will enter and give thanks to the LORD.

20 This is the gate of the LORD
through which the righteous may enter.

21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
you have become my salvation.

22 The stone the builders rejected
has become the capstone;

23 the LORD has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.

24 This is the day the LORD has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it.

25 O LORD, save us;
O LORD, grant us success.

26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD.
From the house of the LORD we bless you.

27 The LORD is God,
and he has made his light shine upon us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
up to the horns of the altar.

28 You are my God, and I will give you thanks;
you are my God, and I will exalt you.

29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

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well you may think that this science fiction but it is real, because one’s mind says something and God says the opposite thing, and God is the one that all of us should believe.
I love you whoever is reading
God bless you

A prayer (take me back)

Hi all, this is a small prayer i wrote, guess it is different than all my writings , any way , i hope it  be blessed, and that you like it and maybe you will use it in your prayer 🙂

God bless

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keep me under your wings
forgive me and clear my sins

take me back to your home
i cant reach it on my own

let this be a prayer for you
not  a lie but true

let it be as  your heart desires

taste me the joy of yours
give me , give me your salvation
accept me , accept me in your nation
because i want to be yours
and i  can’t do it on my own

teach me how to follow you
tell me what should i do

i am just a little one
i used to hide from your sun

now your glory is what i want to see
show me your way and set me free

i know you are smiling down on me
i know you are always loving me

take my hands and lead me today
teach me how to love you and love your way.
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it’s just i figured out that i want to be clear with jesus, i want to express myself , i know that jesus wants me to be honest with him ,so at first i tell him  that i want to be yours,i want to be safe in your hands, i want you to forgive me, i can’t do it on my own , i can’t be good enough, but you can make me so, you can give me your strength ,your faith , so that i can be what you want me to be , which is going to be the best thing ever, i pray and i want you to teach me how to pray so that this prayer is useful , because some of our prayers are not honest, or asking for the wrong things, or not just true, so i want God to teach me how to pray, i want to be in his army , i want to be his son, i want to taste and enjoy his salvation, because once  i used to hide from him , but it was because i ddin’t knew him , i didn’t knew how loveing he is , and how much it is great to live in his way, it’s not that easy but jesus can give me strength so that i make it , when you come to God, when you come to him truly, when you honsetly want to live with him, i am sure that God will be smiling down on you, because he loves me and you, even if you don’t know him , i wrote a poem named ” jesus loves me whoever i am” https://everyoneslife.wordpress.com/2008/10/01/jesus-loves-me-whoever-i-am/ it is true, and i use it to remind myself with it  that jesus loves me,

God bless you  🙂