The Night Before The Cross

THE NIGHT BEFORE THE CROSS

I knew a while ago that this was going to happen, I knew that I am going to the court yard, some one will spit in my face, I will be b struck with fists , mocked, I knew it.

The night before the cross, my disciples told me that they are not goint to Leave me, even if they have to die with me ,all of them said so.

But I knew that was not going to happen, one of them is going to deny that he knows me 3 times, and the rest are going to leave me,

And yet I accepted it, I didn’t offend.

So when you give me a promise, when you tell me that you are not going to do something , you are going to leave this or that thing, when you honestly say so but then  your promise falls, know that I am not going to leave you, and I knew from the start that you are  going to break it, but I accepted it, I didn’t offend, my love to you didn’t stop.

The night before the cross I took 3 of my disciples, because I was sad and depressed I was sad to death, I wanted them to stay late with me, but they fell asleep, they couldn’t stay up for even an hour, in this deep need I had,

Know that when you need someone to stay up with you, in the time of your sadness or depression, call for me, I will come and stay up with you, I once was in your shoes, and I know how it feels, I will not leave you, I will stay up with you.

I am for the broken hearted,

I am for the weary

and I am for the sinners.

 

I knew that I t was coming, the betrayal, the escape of my disciples, and I asked My Father to pass this cup, but his will is what I desire , this cup should pass through me drinking it, so let it be My Father’s will

I knew my son that I am going to bleed, I knew that I am going to be lift up so I draw all the people to me, lifted up on the cross for you son.

32And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.” 33He said thisto show by what kind of death he was going to die.” (john 12:32-33)

Even my trial was not fair, they had nothing on me, “for the ruler of the world is coming, and he has nothing in Me” (john 14:30)

Remember all I was thinking of were you, and I did it because I love you, not because anything else, and during all of this I wasn’t thinking  in my heart that I am doing something I have to do or because it was only my role ,No, You were in my heart… You rising with me, having your salvation ,  You free of sin , no longer a slave but a son , no longer living in darkness but seeing the light, no longer living in the land of the shadow of death ,but You finding Love  you finding your rest… In Me.. 

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. (john 3 :16)

 

  28″Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (matthew 11 :28 – 30)

 

.the people living in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death  a light has dawned ( matthew 4:16)

 

The Secret Of Joy

From the book God at eventide (www.twolisteners.org)

February 20 – The Secret Of Joy

Such rapture is yours.  Count it all Joy to know Me, and to delight in Me.  The secret of Joy is the longing to have My Will, and the gratification of that longing.

There is nothing in Heaven that transcends the Joy, the ecstasy, of loving and doing My Will.  To a soul who realizes this wonder, Heaven is already attained as far as mortals here can attain it.  My Will for you is My joyous arranging for you.

The frustration of the Divine Plan is man’s tragedy.

Ever secure

From the book God at eventide (www.twolisteners.org )

February 13 – Ever Secure

Abide secure in My friendship.

A friend who knows you through and through; knows all your pitiful attempts at living for Me, your many and tragic failures, your childish misunderstanding of Me and what I would do for you.

Your desire to serve Me, your clinging to Me in the dark hours of helplessness; your stumbling confidence in your efforts to walk alone — I know all.

I have seen your persistent blindness to My guidance; I have seen how you obstruct the answers to your own prayers; I have noted your easy acquiescence to those forces that oppose My loving purposes.

I know all this, and yet I say again:  Abide with Me secure in My friendship.

Who’s My Mentor ? ?

Some times i find no one to guide or to lead my spiritual life, at church there’s a youth leader, but it’s been a month since the group was made ,it’s supposed to be once a week, any way for the last month it was canceled each time because the leader is not availble or because someone is not coming because he had to travel for work for a while or something and we are not supposed to continue sessions with out him. anyway , this month i needed guidance the most, i was stumbling in so many ways, in so many issues , and since i needed help i couldn’t find, i prayed for God and asked who can help me ? , i am left alone, no one has time to help me ,to answer my questions, and i am having hard time now, i was astonished or shocked , because how can my spiritual life depends on someone or somepeople that at sometime they maynot be availble or here, i was sad actually and hopeless, many questions were in my mind and i couldn’t help it. Iam sure that many of you , feel the same, ( i hope you don’t actually ) but it’s  was the sad truth for me, no one is surrounding to help, the answer is in the following lines in psalm 119

m Mem

 97 Oh, how I love your law!
       I meditate on it all day long.

 98 Your commands make me wiser than my enemies,
       for they are ever with me.

 99 I have more insight than all my teachers,
       for I meditate on your statutes.

 100 I have more understanding than the elders,
       for I obey your precepts.

 101 I have kept my feet from every evil path
       so that I might obey your word.

 102 I have not departed from your laws,
       for you yourself have taught me.

 103 How sweet are your words to my taste,
       sweeter than honey to my mouth!

 104 I gain understanding from your precepts;
       therefore I hate every wrong path.

— notice with me the first verses :

 97 Oh, how I love your law!
       I meditate on it all day long.

– it  says here  ” I meditate on it all day long” the law which is God’s words to each one of us when one meditate on them (think of them, understand them, love them, hold them by his heart”- I am starting to get a clue-

 98 Your commands make me wiser than my enemies,
       for they are ever with me.

– the commands of God are making me wise…

 99 I have more insight than all my teachers,
       for I meditate on your statutes.

– I have more insight than all my teachers

the writer is saying that he is having more insight than all his teachers for he mditates on God’ statutes 

 100 I have more understanding than the elders,
       for I obey your precepts.

he is having more understanding than the elders because he obey’s God’s precepts.

 

what God told me then, that my mentor is God himself, I do need a youth leader, i do need to have a group in the church , but God is not going to leave me alone ,God is not going to leave me as a leaf carried by the wind that has no one to collect , God saying I am not leaving you , i will take care of you ,i will tell you what to do through my words , my law , my statutes my precepts, Don’t worry  they will make you wise, it will give you sight, it will give you understanding,.

this is very beautiful from God, he is taking care of every one of us, when we ask him to be our mentor, it’s a great honour, a great chance to have a master a teacher who is God. so you can have God as your mentor, ask him , tell him God i want  you to teach me, i want to follow your law,your commands, your satutes, your preciepts because you will give me understanding , you will give me wisdom , you will  tell me what to do , and you will lead me through each day of my life through them , nothing is going to stop God’s love, God’s guidance, God’s parenthood from us, God’s love is unstopable,  even when you are left alone with no one to tell you what to do, God is there ,i prayed to God i told him what to do , i have no one to take care of me, but God answered through his words telling me i am taking care of you, pray to God to take care of you , to lead you , to be your mentor, to support you, his love is incredible , his love is so pure and complete,. actually i am going to take it as for all time, take that God is my mentor, i do need  the youth group and the youth leader, God is going to talk to me through them ,God is the source, if the words of the leader is not from God, they are useless, God is the source, God is the mentor, however things are bad at your group or something, God is always here , God is the source, I am going to ask God every day to be my mentor , to lead me, to tell me what to do, to help me  and answer my questions, God gave us a precious gift which is the holy bible, it’s God message for each one of us every day a specific message for each one of us every day ,every minute, for every thought and every challenge and every questions. Let’s not forget that God is the great teacher , he is all in all , and he is my and your mentor.

if you want God to teach you , please pray right now, aks him to be your father ,your love, your salvation and your teacher, tell him i want you, i open my heart for you to love ,to lead and to guide me through my life. tell him all your fears, all your questions, becuase he has all the love, all the courage, all the wisdom, all the power and all the answers.

Don’t worry we are God’s sons and daughters, he loves us, he is our father, he is taking care of us, don’t let fear  slip into your heart, remember that God is mighty to save, and he is stronger than any circumstances or any problems or difficulities, remeber that your lord has conquered the grave, created the heaven and the earth , he can take care of each one of us, and he loves to do so, believe him ,blieve his words, and ask him to be in your life.

God bless you all.

did you forgot about the poor or what?? ( feeling lonely)

A day earlier before Christmas, a priest went out to a small village in upper Egypt with one of the servants to give Christmas gifts to the needy in the village, and after they went to the houses they meant to go  in the village, there was still a small hut at the end of the village, the servant hesitated to go because all the effort they did and because the it was late that they can catch up with the prayers in the Christmas eve, but the priest encouraged him to go to that hut, so they walked through a long road, till they reached the hut, and they were asking themselves while they were walking ,who is going to open the door for them, because they know that the lady that lives in that hut can’t walk, so they reached the hut, they knocked  , the strange thing that they have found the lady opening ,and that her leg can carry her now, so they gave her the gift of the Christmas which was food supplies, she thanked them and then they were going to leave , but she insisted that they come in, and then they smelled a lovely scent and saw a clear light inside the hut that they didn’t know it’s source.

The lady told them , I live here with my son in that hut, and I can’t take care of myself, and my son spends most of the time out, and I suffer of the feeling of being alone because it’s rare that someone come and visit in our simple hut that’s away from the village, and there’s nothing I can do but to pray and ask God to carry away my feeling of loneliness and give me a bit of peace and rest, and today after my son went out, my feeling of being lonely and abandoned increased a lot ,because today everyone is getting ready to celebrate the Christmas and is wearing new clothes and meet each other at the church while I am staying alone in that hut and not feeling the joy of the Christmas, so I started to pray and  reproaching  Christ because he left me in this loneliness and the picture of baby Christ held by the virgin Mary  was hanged on the wall in front of me, so I looked at him and reproached him saying ,”did you forget about the poor or what?”

Then I started to think that nobody is going to visit her whether of her relatives or from the church so I kept reproaching Christ saying to him that the Christmas is here and no one came to visit, and while I am looking at him I find him coming out of the picture and came near to me and cleared my tears and told me merry Christmas, so I felt joy and dread  that I can’t express , and at the same time I felt that a power is moving through me ,so my weak legs got stronger and I stood and then Christ disappeared leaving in the hut his beautiful light and his beautiful scent ,and it is not to long till you knocked my door, so the priest and the servant had  consolation and thanked God that encouraged them to make their last visit and the most important visit , in this low hut to become the greatest house in the village, and as a long time ago , God blessed the place that never was expected that a human to be born in a  manger , now he blessed this place too,

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When people go away from you or when that many are around you but no one feels you , and you suffer from  psychological isolation, know that Christ longs to make you feel his presence , he is so close to you, and this is your chance to enjoy him, ask for him, and put all your  complaints and your needs in front of him , he loves you and longs to hear your prayers and whatever how long you have been feeling lonely , know that he was beside you from the first hour, and never left you for a single moment, ask  him with insistence that he reveals himself to you, so that he gives your heart consolation ,and you enjoy peace and joy

God bless

Someone

good days don’t last forever
life and joy are not always together

pain is in everyday and to experience sadness is a must
whether you had a hard day or betrayed by a one you trust

his heart was torn apart today
he never thought it would hurt that way

and she lost her love in a blink of an eye
nothing she can hear of her breath but a sigh

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I wondered for so long times , is it ok to sing a song that’s sad
I wondered is there’s some one who really understands
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there’s some one exactly knows how do you feel
exactly passed through the same and the pain was so real

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the pressure at work is killing his peace
should he leave his job or live in tears

and she had a difficult decision to make
to accept who she is or to continue being a fake

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all i know is when you have a sad song to play
Jesus is with you and he will never leaves away

he is still walking in our streets saying ” any burden to bear?”
still calling onto you,” give me from your pain a share”

You don’t have to taste sorrow alone
Jesus is the only one that loves you when you are on your own
when you are tired and can’t wait to get home
Jesus is feeling your pain

and when your night is long and still waiting for the dawn
when you feel so cold and need a love that’s warm
Jesus wants to hug you , to protect you from the storm
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One thing I know is that you don’t have to carry pain on your own
and when sad songs come, don’t sing them alone
fore there’s one who’s feeling your pain
and this one, does really care.

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Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. (matthew 5:4)

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psalm 91

14 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”

* Psalm 118
5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
and he answered by setting me free.
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know that Jesus is always with you he is loving you,he is watching over you, call him in your pain or sadness, and he will comfort you, he will set you free, he will rescue you, give you his salvation.all this words are for you, believe God when he tells you i will rescue, set you free, i will comfort you, if you want to love God but you can’t , tell him show me your love, show me what i need to love you, and he will, because he wants your salvation because he loves you, he suffered all the pain and dying on the cross, only because he loves you i
n john (3:16) “16”For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
Jesus loves you.
God bless

when you are hurt

everyone of us surely has been hurt by loved ones, guess we all were betrayed at least for one time by our friends, a member of our family or even your love,feeling rejected. when someone you love, when someone you trust, hurts you, the wounds are so deep, if it was someone that’s not important or close to us who made the wound , it would have been much easier and not that deep , not that hurt, not all those teares would have been shed, but unfortunately , the ones we love hurts us a lot,

when someone close hurt me, i go to Jesus, i tell him , see my God, this one i love hurt me, i’m so sad, he/she shouldn’t have done this, why did he/she do so ? , i  didn’t hurt any of my loved ones that much before , why??, Jesus answers me , he tells me , listen son , once i was hurt by my loved ones , i was betrayed by my loved ones, i was cursed by the people i healed, by the people who i loved that i died for them, the people who crucified me, who kicked me, who spit on me were all my sons, my loved ones, i tasted all this bitterness from my loved ones, i know how do you feel, we are sharing the same pain now, but i love you , my consolation is yours, i have conquered the world, come into my arms, cry in my arms, and i will heal you, because i know exactly what you are through.

i believe that in the bible, when all the hatred  and betrayal and being rejected that jesus experienced  were told, i believe that Jesus is saying , when you experience the same, come to me for i can heal you.

i am not saying this without experiencing it, Jesus told me so, you can have his consolation now, if you are hurt , go to him , tell him, tell him , give me your peace, consolation and joy, because i know you are willing to give them to me , because you have been through the same. and jesus will hold you , and will heal your wounds.

Jesus said in matthew 11

¹⁵ “Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, ¹⁶ and I will give you rest.

¹⁷ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for your selves.

For my yoke is easy, and my burden light.”

 

I know what you are going through, I have experienced pain as much as you did. I can heal you